keep this to myself

there's something in this dream that I want to get. I just felt it; it's like dejà vu but also it has something to do with this song that's playing. It's just inside my reach, but I can't see it for all the weird nostalgia-tainted obscuring fog. Or, not fog, so much as light. It's a dim light. It's pretty, though. You are there, but I don't think you can come along. I'm pretty sure it has to do with cancer.
yeah,
I'm pretty sure I can feel the edges of it.